Day Zero Project-Year One

I realized today that it's been one year since I made that list on my side bar of all the things I want to do in 3-ish years. I've been updating it fairly regularly, and I've really done a lot this year.

In updating it a minute ago I realized that some of the things that I thought were important, just aren't anymore, so I reserve the right to delete and come up with new things. I thought last year that for our 5 yr anniversary it would be cool do have another little vow ceremony. Now... it's not important to me. I've realized that it's more important to reflect on our vows in small doses, rather than a big grand ceremony. Not that it wouldn't be fun, but not for 5 yrs... maybe 10. I also could give two shits about finishing the twilight series now. I loved the first one, and the second one I stopped at chapter 2 and haven't looked back. I'm over it.

There were a couple things I had on my list that were specific events that never happened as well, so I will have to edit those and turn them into new goals.

I'm feeling pretty different this year. My goals for 2010 are going to be bigger and broader. I've sort of learned how to dream bigger. With my business up and going, it really changes my perspective on how I'd like my life to be... thus changing my goals.

Last year I said I'd like to weigh 170. That's a pretty good weight for me. I can wear a normal size 10/12, have my buffed out soccer legs back and still indulge my sweet tooth every now and then. I still have 2 years to complete this, but I'm hoping I'll be down to that weight sooner than that. I learned a lot this year about weight issues for me. 1) I'm a PRO at losing 3 lbs, then gaining it back, then losing 2, then 4, then 3, then gaining back 5 and so on and so on. Overall, I've lost and gained putting me at a total of 10 lbs lighter than last year at this time. Not much to speak of, but I will keep on truckin'. 2) I realized that I think about my weight WAY WAY too much. It stresses me out to worry about it, think about it, visualize about it, dream about it. Because it causes me stress, it's sort of like I'm standing in my own way. This year I'm going to just eat healthy and exercise. I know, I'm a genius! I've decided to stop thinking about it, and stressing that it's not happening fast enough, and just relax about it and do it. I have this quote at my desk that essentially says "the mind has to run the body, not vice versa" but I think in my case, I need to let my body run my mind. I need to get out of my head and more into my body. Does that make sense? Does anyone even read my blog anymore? Who am I and where am I going? What is my purpose on this earth? Just kidding... I'm ready to truly create the life I want, and let's be honest... who wants to live life with their thighs rubbing together? Not me!

Ten-Four little buddy, smokey check. Over and out!

PS- on our trip out to California last week. Scott and myself created trucker handle names for eachother. He named me Noodle Caboodle and his name is El Jefe. We spoke in C.B. talk for a good 30 minutes and I highly recommed it for a good time.